Hetero Genes - Therapy Session Lyrics

I'm addicted to pain, I know that sounds insane
But, pain is the one thing that I utilize in my life to grow up
Fake smiling every time and nobody knows it's just a cover up
It's hard for me to trust people, that's why I'm always closed up
Trapped inside my brain, and I feel like I'm ganged up
By the voices inside my head, I can't seem to shut em up
I don't need no help, even though my life is messed up
I feel like nobody understands, that's why I'm always locked up
Losing a piece of my heart, trying everyday to stitch it up
No matter how much I try, it gets even more f*cked up
I'm not an introvert, I just don't like no drama
Sitting around people, feels like I'm stuck in a coma
I wish I could clear all my memories, so I can forget about all these tragedies
But I know that I can't, so I'll be in my fantasy
In hopes to create a new reality
Welcome to my therapy session
My therapy session
This is my therapy session
Hope I find a revelation
I built my walls up high and let nobody in
Don't wanna open up, I'd rather stay here and slip in
Got all these scars, they need some time to heal
I got two faces, I don't even know which one is real
I tried to kill the hate, by befriending my demons
Thought everything would change, like the yearly seasons
But everything got worse, feels like I committed a treason
I've been hard on myself, I don't even know the reason
I've been living my life in the fast lane
Everyday in a mask, like a cosplay
Tryna outrun my past and my old ways
But I can't seem to find the light for my dark days
I wish I could clear all my memories, so I can forget about all these tragedies
But I know that I can't, so I'll be in my fantasy
In hopes to create a new reality
Welcome to my therapy session
My therapy session
This is my therapy session
Hope I find a revelation