HIDDEN NATION - Life (feat. LIL LONER) Lyrics

Lately I've been questioning what's next
All the pain in my life, I seem so depressed
I got a lot of anxiety, stuck inside of me
Swear to God I try to cope with it the best I can yuh

Running away from my demons late at night
I try to do everything to escape all the demons
Late at night, they come out and prey upon me
And I swear to god, I'm not safe

Panic attacks, on time stamps
And I swear to God, I feel like I'm dying
To escape all this pain in my life, I feel like dying
You don't know what it's like
To feel like you're falling apart
And you just wanna drop to your knees and pray out to your God, or whoever you believe in
I try to escape reality, and it does not help anyway

I've been dealing with a lot of things on my mind
I swear to God, I just wanna die
I just wanna get a grip, alright
I just wanna do this, alright

I told my mama, when I would get older, I would help her
I ain't done shit, I ain't accomplished anything in my life
I am so sick of this life, I feel like I'm not getting by
I just wanna f*cking cry, I just can't get by

I can't blow up, oh why
I just wanna get famous, alright
I know money does not bring happiness
But I would love to sit there and do what I love

Complaining yeah
All the pain in my life, swear to God, it's every step in life
I just wanna get it right
Trust the reminders in the process, and make it right

All the pain, all the people that I lost, all the loved ones
I rest in peace to the tall ones yeah
Swear to God, your name will never, never go in vain
Hopefully, it's better on the other side
Question, what is life, when you sit there and die

I woke up, to see your face, ain't it kinda weird
But I forgot that you're not there
Kinda crazy, ain't it complicated

Love ain't got me scared, the answer's timeless
I'm tossing, turning, thinking about my life
And where I went wrong, took that left turn
Feels like I could never do it again
I could never sleep right
Sleep paralysis again
I'm trapped inside my bed
Evil thoughts inside my head

Hopefully, in my dreams, I'll sit there and stay
I wanna be the greatest, I wanna taste in the shit
I just wanna make my family proud, and give everything that I can, yeah
Lately, I've been going down, this dark road I call life

This shit is hard, I ain't gonna lie
Just tryna do everything to get by
I've been trying to get in this job, I can't seem to get it
Cause I don't have a birth certificate

Swear to god, this life is so f*cked up and corrupt
Yeah
Sorry mama, for everything that I've done to you
I'm hoping one day, I can come back to you

I don't know what I'm gonna do, without you.