I had a little too much fun when I was seventeen
All it took was once for threats to throw my baby out on the street
Now I gotta be a man, take responsibility for all their cruelty
Fight alongside infidels to the east, as if it'll wipe my slate clean
Hailed as a hero while I'm overseas
But it's not easy
My purple heart waits for a sign that I've been forgiven
Picture-perfect picket fence white, but it still feels too different
It's more than just the burn scars and marks on my skin
It's the ashes of dreams behind my eyes and night terrors shredding up my confidence
I can put on a happy face for your company
But it's not easy
'Cause it's all day all work
No play, some pay
But it's not enough to keep me strong
But I gotta get out of bed
And make sure my family's fed
With this war inside my head goin' on for so long
Her fingertips danced on your lap
Tracing the stained glass windows of the cathedral hall
Tasted blood at the altar
Washed away my sin with a little alcohol
I don't remember that night I threw my bottle at the wall
Only you the next morning cryin' 'bout how this ain't what you wanted at all
'Cause it's all day all work
No play, some pay
But it's not enough to keep me strong
But I gotta get out of bed
Stay hungry or end up dead
With this war inside my head goin' on for so long
'Cause it's been days and she's still gone
A taboo on the loose
There's consequences for being too headstrong
Don't resent me for being so aggressive
She says, "I hate livin' where I'm chokin' without fresh air"
She's telling me that I never cared, ohh