They really want to come at me with everything they got
I just kick back and sit back and listen to my tunes in my room, yeah
They ain't got nothing that can break the lock
Calmly chillin' smokin' on my spliff, wondering when they're gonna break this shit
Second that I get a piece of mind see em peepin' through my blinds, I just smile while I got the time
Cause I know my windows bulletproof, then I shut my eyes
And I dream about shit, like that one time I fumbled that bad bitch
Had to make a left turn real quick
Made some decisions that changed my life so quick
Ruin my reputation with my family, friends and peers
This ain't my trajectory, I just wanna be in the clear
I just see that light get dimmer day by day
Self-reflecting, I just think about myself in too many different ways
Every time I'm at the function
Always sitting all quiet thinking if I should say something
Way too late to leave now
I can't get up, I would have way too many eyes on me
I'm afraid of crowds
That's why I keep my circle tight
Only hang with the homies on these late nights
Till I'm couple bottles deep, then I skirt off to the streets
Try to kill myself and forget every little thing
Man that pussy and that money ain't really shit
If you ain't in the right head space to do anything with it
And I'm tired of walking around smiling like a bitch
I know you and me both ain't really feeling it
What a shame that the world wanna see you in pain
I can't really take it, but I take what I can get
If it's dollar signs, love or some hope I'm taking it
Sometimes all it takes is a motherf*cker telling me I'm gon' be good today
That's a false reality
So I fall back on the things that I think will give me relief
Drugs, alcohol and weed
Everything around me make me wanna black out till I pass out, till I pass out
Drugs, alcohol, weed
Give me sentimental release
I just need some relief from the f*ckin' life that I've been living recently
I need a painkiller
Maybe another day
Give me something that will turn my life into a thriller
Hope is everything
Sun is gonna shine
After every storm somethin' gotta grow
Give it time, give it time