Hobby - Phantom Pain Lyrics

It's been a lifetime, and I still can feel her death
It crept up behind me, a promise that I never kept
As a child, swore that I would bare the burden
I would be the one to help her fall asleep
Ten years later, wasn't there
All I've got now is the distant memory
You set a life expectancy inside your head
Twenty years is just unreasonable, you'll settle with the silence
Is there any kind of pain like life's fragility?
It's a cosmic joke, a holy comedy
I've got hatred in my eyes
What kind of God lets loved ones die
Without giving them a way to say goodbye?
And even with the distance
I still feel your presence
Sleeping at the end of my bed
The subtle root of discontent
It's an ache I cling to, I hope I won't forget
But I don't wanna think about the day you didn't make it home
When the winter cold had seeped into your bones
I've got anger in my eyes
What kind of God lets lost dogs lie
Without giving them a way to say goodbye?
Never said goodbye
Never said goodbye
We never said goodbye
So this is it, no final words before you go
I had to hear it from 200 miles away
And in the absence of a dream
What would help me to believe?
If not sudden loss, then sudden proof of faith?
I've got mourning in my eyes
What kind of God lets loved ones die
Without giving them a way to say goodbye?
A way to say goodbye
We never said goodbye
We never said goodbye