Feelings of helplessness
Engraved into my being
Always looking over my shoulder
Noticing the details in between
I can't deny the obsession
Lurking behind those tired eyes
I've tried to escape its ominous gaze
But it still seems to follow
Piercing me down right to my soul
It's tempting stare so full of hell
Reaching for any chance to take its toll
I'm so scared that I'll never be whole again
I've never known anything but this paranoia
It follows me around like an unhealthy obsession
I never knew how it looked from the outside looking in
I walk around always questioning this state of being
I walk around always questioning this state of being, only thinking about whos around.
Or what they've said or who they've spoken to
I stand here questioning every step I take
Trying to find the path that leads me to peace
You ever want something so bad but it always seems just out of reach?
Teasing you with every step calling out your name
Forever haunting always constantly lurking
Calling out from the other side but never in sight
Am I undeserving, am I just not worth it?
I guess that's just life
We all live to die and all die to live
So pick your poison grow up and swallow it