Hope - Confessions Lyrics

These are my confessions, had to learn a lesson, had to learn that I can't worry about a first impression
I can always change it, and I tried to change it, you never gave me that chance again
And I'm dying in my sins, in my sleep, confessions that I gotta get them out
Can I speak, can I please let you know that I can't breathe

I admit, I keep thinking bout my pills
I admit, I admit, it's been on my mind for some time, for some months, and I wanna do it again, but I don't Wanna do time, huh
Don't do crimes, huh
Why I'm tryna rap, tryna make it up

Things in my head right now, it's hard to come out
I love to smoke the loud, I wanna jump into the crowd
Yeah, things that they don't, things that they don't
Said things they don't know about, I can't speak it out loud, cause God's gonna strike me down

Yeah, God's gonna strike me down
He gon' strike me down, the things I think about, I can't speak it out loud, nah
The cards I was dealt, they were really bad, I didn't have a chance at all. I admit that when I was coming up, I Missed my dad
And I'm glad I got close to him now, before it's too late, huh

Gotta get close to my family now, right before it's too late, uh, uh
I've been distant, I don't know how to talk about my feelings unless it's in the music
My heart is a drug and abused, and I already know, I already know that it's never gonna end
Yeah, it's never gonna end

I call myself, hope to remind myself every day, hold on, the pain ends, the pain's gonna end
But if I can't be honest with my confessions, then I'm always gonna live a life of sin
And I admit that I kissed her
I admit, yeah, yeah, I f*cked her, I miss her, I really wanna get her, but I don't need her, uh

I don't need her, really don't need her, uh
But I love her from the very first kiss, confessions, gotta admit it, uh
I would always do it again, first chance, I get relapse hard, uh