Horizen - In My Life Lyrics

I was youngin comin' up right in the chi
Where it seem impossible to live cause people always dyin'
I just wanna be apart of something gettin' out alive
Thought a gang would be an opportunity for me to ride
This is weird right
Hearin all this shit come out my mouth
But I knew that joining something like that not what I'm about
Didn't slang rock
Never shot shit
But I was contemplating
Thinkin' I would pop shit
Saw a bunch people do the same thang talkin' bout life
Sayin crazy ass shit and talkin' how they almost died
Pullin drive bys
This ain't how I wanna live my life
I just wanna feel apart of something bein wit the guys
Bein wit the wrong crew mama said to watch my back
Should've listened to her then but I was ignorant and that
Was the moment that I took her up for granted
But we liven wit experience and do what you can handle

I'm just tryna be apart of something
Bigger than myself ain't no discussion
I always felt alone it so depressing
Never felt apart of anything all in my life
In my life
All in my life
I Never felt apart of anything all in my life

Bein like an Outkast
Kind of made me understand I wasn't like that
Got a lot of trust issues I ain't trustin' no man
I was sinkin' in the ground like some quick sand
Ever been robbed by your own dude
Ever had that gun pointed at you
Not knowin' if it's time for that a schedule
But I ain't clockin' out, I'm not due
Now I always know to watch my back (Quick Paise)
I ain't runnin' any games
I'll be known to clap back
Got a lot for me to gain
Carry .40
Know that I ain't talkin' bout change
Don't promote the gun violence
But it won't happen again
Made a promise to myself
And lord forgive my sins
I'm just tryna make it out to be the man I always been
Bein honest to the people that Have always been around
I won't ever do you dirty like the people who been foul

I'm just tryna be apart of something
Bigger than myself ain't no discussion
I always felt alone it so depressing
Never felt apart of anything all in my life
In my life
All in my life
I Never felt apart of anything all in my life

This is why I like to be alone
Silence when I'm walking in my home
The music is what really keep me goin'
And the moment I get on I'll be important
I'm not bein' cocky this to everyone whoever doubt me
Don't be callin' up my phone and sayin' we all buddy buddy
You ain't doin' nothin for me
Then don't ask me for a hand out
Only thing I'll hand out is the pictures from my glass house
Like the views huh
Yea I'm sittin' pretty nice
All the energy I put into my music is my life
Every person in my life has been a lesson for the books
Don't expect to try me now cause I won't be the one shook
Tried to be nice
Offer something like a brother
But the way they did me dirty man why would I even bother
So I'm sorry for my cold heart and not given a f*ck
It's just me against the world and I don't need any that luck

I'm just tryna be apart of something
Bigger than myself ain't no discussion
I always felt alone it so depressing
Never felt apart of anything all in my life
In my life
All in my life
I Never felt apart of anything all in my life