Horror - Sadistically Self Informed Lyrics

How do I not even know what I want?
Am I so self reliant that it has become a problem?
When you can't even trust yourself, the world is a lonely place.
I see a stranger when I look in the mirror and see my face.
What are your desires?
What are your needs?
How can you become everything you want to admire?
My hatred for ignorance and selfishness project unto myself
I am just a shell of a man with no need for his health
I don't know what I am or what I want anymore
I want to live one day at a time after all
Because I don't even know what or who I am
I'm just sadistically self informed