Hours Spent Awake - Rocket Science Lyrics

I've got a ringing in my ear
You've got a new ring on your finger
Across the bar I watch you dance with all the boys whose feelings linger
From high school

I haven't got you figured out
But as we lie here on this worn-out couch
I can feel your heart beat in my chest
I can picture us in our Sunday's best
But my thoughts will wander on
To you walking down the main boulevard
In those red heels you begged me for
You know that I could never ignore
The look you gave
On that cold November day

It took a little while for me to notice that
You would minimize eye contact
When we would go out to dinner
I thought I was clever
But I should've known better
Shouldn't I?

Would you give your heart away to someone new?
A stranger or an old friend
A boy you kissed once in middle school
Or the man at the altar, forever a fool

Threw you a surprise party
Invited all your closest friends
And then there was me
Sitting patiently and lonely
To me you made your way
Your mouth started forming words
That I had hoped you'd say
But what came out was a far different thing

Would you give your heart away to someone new?
A stranger or an old friend
A boy you kissed once in middle school
Or the boy at the party, in the corner, thinking of how much he loves you

As I stand here at the precipice
Of this ill-maintained Virginia bridge
I decide I won't lose my life over love
My dad said it takes a real man
To have the nerve, the heart, the spine
To find that you're no good for someone else
And you're no good for me
You're the fruit of a toxic plant that I'd foolishly eat
Flow through my veins like the bite from a cottonmouth
Think I've finally got this all figured out

I'll walk home with all my ghosts in tow
Let the freezing air fill up my lungs
No need for smoke

I've got a crush on getting crushed into a thousand tiny pieces
But I'll get some gauze, mend my wounds
Pick up some super glue from the other room
And spend the next few nights putting myself back together