iann shmliann - i be fuckin up Lyrics

I be f*ckin up
Keep my pain a quarter tucked
See the day I don't relate to my dad & my mom
I be f*ckin up
Every day I'm pourin up
& i aint even like to drink
Forget it aint the same as weed
I be f*ckin up
Go & lose a hundred bucks over somethin dumb
& tell my friends I won
No one knows I'm f*ckin up
No one cares
They suggest I grow up
Why no one taught me how to think
They only taught me how to read
So they can tell me how to see
Call me weird for not agreeing
Say I'm wrong for disbelieving
& the saddest thing is
You won't ever realize
Because you're stuck on things you've grown believin
"This is really right" until you die
You won't ever realize
Because you're stuck on things you've grown believin
"This is really right" until you die
I was f*ckin up
Livin life f*cked up
Pourin too many cups
Drown out all my thoughts
I've had so many dreams lost in reality
I have seen things that simply shouldn't be
I've taken lines that had me look to the skies
I've made lies over shit that was well despised
But through my life, that was my time
I was feelin right, one hell of a night
But I really didn't see who the f*ck I was hurtin
And before I knew it we were pulling down the curtains
Of a life, never more
Of a time, out the door
Now I'm lookin, here's a vision
And here's what
I know I see
I'm gonna
Live life's mission
That's the only way to be free
Heading further from a shore
To a place I've never been before
Clouds of white and skies of blue
A heaven I never thought was true
Look within yourself & see the gold
No matter the dirt on your road
None of us have perfection
But an idea of complex dreams