I'm alive but dead inside
My depression hitting hard
I find it hard to try
People don't deserve to pass
Why they gotta die
It brings a tear to my eye
I may not seem it but I get emotionally attached
Drugs f*cking with my brain
I hear the devil laugh
Piece of paper with my future in my right hand
And I'm staring at the stars i hope might end
Waking up to find the one I love is not there
I don't wish it upon no one but life isn't fair
Does god really care
Because I know he can hear me
I just wanna talk
Nobody should fear me
By myself how I walk
Turn myself to a legend
This life that I hold
Could be over in a second
Ran away from my home
Cause I feel paranoid
Of everyone I trust
Leaving an empty void
And that trust is gone
And now my hope is too
The trip is long
But I'm not coping through
I thought I was fine but I was on my own
I needed some help cuz I was all alone
999 don't mean nothing to me anymore
911 should've been the first call
If it was i could still be here
Mystery's unsolved
The message wasn't clear no way uh
Was I there so I could stay uh
With tears running down my face uh
All this shit i cannot take uh
Why ain't the world a better place
Leaving my family without a trace
Only I know where I went which ways
Only I know what goes through my mind
I've had enough 16 years we're fine