Behind the Ghost's Door Video (MV)

I don't want to feel this way
I just want to think straight
We made plans and you said "great"
But it started getting late
Don't show up
Well that's okay
A walk in the park turned to pouring rain
Got all dressed up, now my clothes are stained
You're the one who escaped the pain
You're the only one to blame
I don't want to feel this way
I just want to think straight
That's right I'm givin' myself the hit
I gave my all, gettin' tired of it
Nobody asked me to, it's just what I do
Now I'm impatiently waiting
With no communication
Wishing this was all
Some elaborate creation
I'm pulling it apart
Out of blissful frustration
I want to be better I do
I'm burning out, through, just done
I'm a jack of all trades
Master of none
Going in circles with love
And that's no fun
I don't want to feel this way
I just want to think straight
I made plans and you said "great"
But it started getting late
Don't show up
Well that's okay
A walk in the park turned to pouring rain
Got all dressed up, now my clothes are stained
While everyone lives their lives
I'm out here catching falling knives
Give me a reason to f*ckin' believe
What I want has something to f*ckin' achieve
I'm swearing a lot, but it's how I cope
I'm sweating a lot, but it's all for show
I'm tied in a knot, stuck in a wedge
I'm getting hot, step to the ledge
Feel the breeze and start to cool
At the bottom there is no pool
No soft landing here!
But I'm numb in a state of constant fear
And this is all I hear
I don't want to feel this way
I just want to think straight
I made plans and you said "great"
But it started getting late
Don't show up
Well that's okay
A walk in the park turned to pouring rain
Got all dressed up, now my clothes are stained
I'm getting pretty f*ckin' sick
Sorry, don't mean to be a dick
But when you throw me out just as quick
As Mr. Owl takes his lick
The fog in my head starts getting thick
Ain't thinking clearly anymore
We f*ck, we fight, we slam the door
You go and act like nothings wrong
Despite feeling sorry for so damn long
But sorry doesn't cut it
Don't worry I got the scissors, so f*ck it
I'm about to write you off like you blew me off
Which really threw me off onto that ground that ain't so soft
Tell me the truth if ya want
But if ya act like you're hot shit to flaunt
I'll spit you on the mic with lyrics that haunt
'Cause I'm the f*ckin ghost now
Is this what you want?
What's that? I'm not dead!
But you can find me alone filled with dread
Go on say it, it's all in ya head
"C'mon JD it's all imaginary, it's all up there, can't you see?"
Nah bitch, clearly I'm blind
'Cause I keep losing my mind
With every bitch that I find
That takes me for granted
And leaves me behind
But that's not you though
Sike bitch I was just being kind
I just wanted to be real with you
About all that you put me through
Because you're a f*cking coward
What did I expect, it's nothing new
You put me to the test
Didn't even try your best
Now it's all coming out
Straight from the chest
This is what you asked for
Putting the good night's behind the ghosts door