ILL Phyl - Misery Lyrics

I lost my faith the memories erased
I keep on living life no stress for me today
The pain it gives me strength
My life for me to gain
If you take hurtful past the Misery remain
Too big of heart gave a way piece of me
And the reality of things is I'm just a broken dream (broken dream)
I won't ever be free they have control of me
The rest of my entire life I'm trapped in Misery
As I sit here lost and trapped in my head
Every single voice screams out that it wants me dead
I'm just tryna get away from all the pain and the stress and escape all of the demons that be beating my chest
I'm just tryna maintain and embrace the rain but every single day ain't seeing a change
Only hatred remains instead hating the same we steady plaguing the game instead of making a name
We gotta stick together or we fighting for nothing so continue to be fake and then we hate on each other
Why imitate ya loyal and turn your back on your brother and pledge devotion to one another then betray your own lover
It f*ckin sickens me to see this right in front of me
But it's easy to percieve there's no reason to believe
It's too late for me to let it be it feels like God's forsaken me
If that's the case then let it be
My heart is frozen totally
I lost my faith the memories erased
I keep on living life no stress for me today
The pain it gives me strength
My life for me to gain
If you take hurtful past the Misery remain
Too big of heart gave a way piece of me
And the reality of things is I'm just a broken dream (broken dream)
I won't ever be free they have control of me
The rest of my entire life I'm trapped in Misery
This hidden Misery just keeps me trapped inside
And the only ones who noticed are who watched me as cried
Kept me from suicide and never left my side
Or an every day witness to this thing I call my life
Or those don't see wouldn't even believe the things I go though are hard for me to percieve that's why I over think alot so that I can receive so before you take me out I've already plot out the theme
I keep on grinding though they wanna see me fall and after the smoke as settled see me standing there tall
And I'll keep on pushin give a damn if they appalled
One day they gonna eat their words I'll stand and appluad
Hit em with an impact a mandible claw
Talkin shit one hit I'll dismantle ya jaw
Talkin wreck upon my family is damage to all
Your calamity is clarity ya manage to fall
I lost my faith the memories erased
I keep on living life no stress for me today
The pain it gives me strength
My life for me to gain
If you take hurtful past the Misery remain
Too big of heart gave a way piece of me
And the reality of things is I'm just a broken dream (broken dream)
I won't ever be free they have control of me
The rest of my entire life I'm trapped in Misery