imaloner - In My Head Lyrics

As of lately I been goin nuts
Serotonins low, really need to sober up
Creating distance cause I don't know how to open up
To many open wounds for you to have to sow them shut
My mind races as if there was a finish line
Life is short, it could be taken at any given time
If Im a sinner talk to god it's between him and I
I'm just living in the moment slowly getting by
To many problems, not enough solutions
I just want peace like I was throwing up the deuces
I been living in a permanent state of confusion
Second guessing what is real like it's all an illusion
If your not happy change your ways I know you've heard that
But it ain't easy when your stuck
And you've given it your all
But your all isn't enough
Trying hard just not to fall
Cause it's hard to get back up
Yeah it's hard to get back up

In my head I feel so alone
I don't know how much longer I can go
When I wake up in the morning yeah I'm upset
Felt the reaper creeping thought that I was up next
Once again I lay awake with all my demons
Can't even close my eyes cause when I do I always see them
Yeah
It's a battle that I'll never win
Happiness is something I believe that I will never get
I go through life with a smile that is fake
Because I hate when people ask if I'm okay

My mentality is negative
I tried to change yeah I promise that I hate this shit
It makes me miserable including all of those around
And I don't wanna be the reason someone's feeling down
I got a lot of bad habits I been tryna break
Like living in the past being a prisoner of my mistakes
So many things I wish that I could go back and erase
Need to focus on the present my futures all I can change
Im going crazy
But nobody can save me
People shooting for the stars and I haven't started aiming
So much time in life but so little to live it
We're no longer focused on building memories, only digits
It's no wonder why everybody's depressed
Working our whole life away cause everybody needs a check
A lot of days when I awake I just wanna leave
Start fresh and I would leave behind everything

In my head I feel so alone
I don't know how much longer I can go
When I wake up in the morning yeah I'm upset
Felt the reaper creeping thought that I was up next
Once again I lay awake with all my demons
Can't even close my eyes cause when I do I always see them
Yeah
It's a battle that I'll never win
Happiness is something I believe that I will never get
I go through life with a smile that is fake
Because I hate when people ask if I'm okay