Haven't I Had Enough? Video (MV)

I haven't thought about killing myself in the last 4 days
(Hooray)
F*ck all the burns and the sneers
Stoked all the fires that were near
To throw the ash in my face
I'm taking over
The hold
That it has me in
I need a shoulder
Getting older
With my weathered skin
Bags under my eyes
Beats chasing after lines
Cause I'm f*cking clean for the first TI'me
In what feels like forever

So don't relax just yet
Already start to forget
As I lay in the stale sweat
Stagnant pool that remains from the weekend
(Mate that is f*cking grI'm)
Slam it shut all the wrong doors that I took
Was it luck I didn't choke when I threw it up?
Laugh it up life's a joke cross the line you punched
Uppercut f*ck me up
I haven't had enough
Haven't I had enough?

I've spent too long self medicating
I know it's wrong and you can hate me for it
"Well if the boot fits" I'm surely helpless
A vicious cycle where I'm forced to admit
I'm too f*cking old to still be doing this every weekend

So here's a prescription for a new set of pills
I won't get any better until I cut a deal
With myself
Here's the lesson
Shut up and listen
Id cut every one of you off
We'd never speak to again
Back a bag fly out in the morning
Forget all my friends by 10am
Without an ounce of regret
Without a slither of pain
Not a word from my mouth
Is said in vain
The glass is half full
At this angle it looks
From down inside of this hole
I'm convinced is my stronghold
Where I sleep all day long
Covered in vines as I grow mould
If I just took a day to heed my advice
Be on my own in the cold as it struck midnight
If I can't see this is the last thing that I need
I will rely on myself to stay clean