Intricate. - Inspired. Lyrics

It's hard for me to find a beat and be inspired entirely
Cause most of these schemes they seem to pop up uninvited see
I lay down to sleep and hope to dream, but these thoughts I have are rowdy beings
I'm tossing over coming clean
Why waste my time in trying to justify the means?
Downtrodden; causeless grief
Is that just my cost to breathe?
I guess I'm used to crossing streams
Not this ocean that's in front of me
And my boots have these spreading seams
Laces loose and my lips are too
Making moves is hard to do without the proper motives passing through my head
I'm not trying to defect
I'm caught up in this mode where I deflect
And so I battle here instead, when I should just make amends, and put it all to rest

You tell me that I can't and I'll show you that I can
What you fail to understand is this part of my larger plan
Always taking chances, so that I'm the one who ends up signing all the cash advances
My tongues a whip and I have left some pretty deep lashes
From now on, my wife's the only one who's leaving scratches
Sinning against myself, I've had it
I'm already an addict so I can't keep adding on to the constant bodily trauma that makes me stagnant

Caught in constant nausea, I'm a by product of love no longer
Class is drab and I'm drawn to grass to ponder
Just need a tad. Now those around me mad, cause I'm a talker
Always stressed to impress like I'm Gaylord Focker
All I ever wanted was to wed the pastor's daughter. But she's engaged now so I guess I shouldn't bother
But I just met another. And the Lord's showing I can wait. Keep putting one foot in front of the other
Just give me a minute to make a living. Cause no woman deserves a man who can't handle his business
Patience is a virtue. And it will save our hearts from stitches