The Invuhlid Behemoth - PainBody Lyrics

I am not
Who I am
I am something
PainBody

I am something
Confounded and elusive
Something frightened
And seeking worth

I am not
What people want
Nor am I
Who I wanna be

I can try
And I can try
But trying will
Drive you insane

If I could
Then I would be
Something
Bigger and better, brighter
Bolder and new

But I know
It's insane to want
Something so horrible
So unreal

So I
Break my back
Paying bills
Knowing there's no better me than me

I need people
I need illusions
I need suffering
I need a story

If I could
Then I would be
Something
Bigger and better and brighter
Bolder and new

But I know
It's insane to want
Something so pitiful
So unreal

So unreal
So unreal