Deprived Video (MV)

Now go
Don't want to see myself in the mirror
Fog dissipating, it gets much more clearer
Stuck in a state of shock when I go see her
The only thing that fills my mind up is my fear
I don't want to talk, everything's so foreign
Can't seem to get myself up in the morning
Don't want to check on my phone, I'm ignoring
Every single person here just annoys me
Paranoid, looking back and forth
All out to get me, I think the worst
Even if I tried, I can't make it work
Even if I did, I'd make us hurt
Tripping over sins I'm soon to commit
Please just stop me, throw me in a ditch
Still try to escape, acting like a bitch
I'm sorry for everything that I did
I'm sorry
I'm so sorry
Stuck in a sorry state
None of my problems have gone away
I can't confront 'em, I run away
Doesn't matter to me anyway
What if I wanted to make a change?
Stay on a track and stop switching lanes
Stop playing all of these shitty games
Maybe only then I won't have to feel this pain
Every night I relapse
Cannot feel my hands
Think about my past
Putting out an act
I can't act like me, use a mask to speak
Burdens, I'm too weak. Problems just repeat
Stare at my ceiling, don't know what to do
Asking myself questions like who are you?
Swear that I used to know, it's true (lies)
The person in the mirror is not who I knew