Irruent - stay? Lyrics

I want to connect
I want to be close
I want to be safe
I want to hold you, know
That it's hard to say goodbye
When I think of the times
When I think of the times that we had
We had
I've been falling apart and I can't see
Maybe then you'll be here
Maybe then you'll see where
I f*cked up
I know I f*cked up and it's hard to take it back
I'm tryna erase my past
You know this morning I woke
You know this morning I woke and thought I'd rather be dead
Be free from my stead
You know I said that I won't
You know I said that I won't but I think I will
My will to end
I'm in too deep
Can't sing
Can't think
Can't plan my own things, I'm a mess
And you know
That I'd want to be with you but you need to be in a better place
Go far away, spread your wings
Go ahead and spread your wings