J4Y - hurtin Lyrics

I'll never fall in love, I'll never find a person
I'm certain, still searching, but nothing's really working
I'm hurting, why the f*ck am I hurting
These verses are the only reason why I'm lurking
On this earth, I'm on the verge of taking my own life
It hurts, but f*ck, it works, I'm sure it'll help
If I go through with it, probably going to hell
Won't have a story to tell, feels like I'm throwing myself
Off of a cliff, and no one could help
I should just pull out my heart, put it up on a shelf
But I just take it out, give it to someone else
So they can break it again, f*ck that, I'm taping it then
Escaping within my mind
Give a f*ck about my life
People always tell me that I should f*cking die
Maybe I should listen to their f*cking advice
Go and get a knife, put it on my neck and slice
Or my wrist, whatever it is
I need a fifth of gin for every sin that I did
I'm drowning at the deep end, I'm back to bleeding
No one likes me, so I'm always lonely on the weekends
No more singing, I'm rapping now, f*cking bringing
That snappy sound while I'm weeping
I'm slapping clowns as I'm scheming
Not happy wow, only demons can see the real me believing
I'm dreaming, but it's reality
Sad as f*ck, but I'm glad to be breathing
Like every day, yo, I need a halo
I'ma be praying for it, so please God don't say
No, I may be craze though, so I'ma lay low
Until I get it, I'ma sit back, watch the rays glow
Never fall in love, I'll never find a person
I'm certain, still searching, but nothing's really working
I'm hurting, why the f*ck am I hurting
Yeah, why the f*ck am I hurting
I'll never fall in love, I'll never find a person
I'm certain, still searching, but nothing's really working
I'm hurting, why the f*ck am I hurting
Yeah, I got no reason to be hurting