J. Khan - 419/Done Lyrics

Tell me that I'm useless and tell me that you hate me
Oh please be ruthless just claim that I was faking
All the shit I said and done, I guess it was nothing
I was who you'd turn and run to for the loving
She said, I'm an addict of love
Maybe cuz I just ain't had it enough
And life keeps crashing ships that I'm a passenger of
God damn it's all of these signs from above
And maybe I'd better off just walking away
I swear as of late its getting harder to pray
I'm sinning day and night while I'm locked in brain
All i had was my words but now i got nothing to say
And this really isn't writers block i just lost my muse
I'm living with these hopeless thoughts mocking all the fools
4 fingers point at me I'll blame it all on you
The 1 thing I feared happening now is coming to
9 times out of 10 I'm taking 2 steps back
7 sleepless nights ain't nothing new in that
419 then a relapse, 419 then I relapse
I'm searching for a soul let it slip through the cracks
Crazy how my future is now for the past
But before I let it go, I just gotta ask
Do I still cross your mind? was it bad all the time?
If I had one more chance
What would I change? What would I keep?
Maybe when we were changing
Its fine I've grieved
If I had one more chance
What would I change? What would I keep?
Maybe when we were changing
Its fine I've grieved
Tell me that you love me, tell me that I'm worth it
Need you to hold me as I look for a purpose
I've been really lonely so I turned to soul searching
I just got a question, am I a good person?
Can I catch a break as these tables keep turning
Feelings I done faked just to say I wasn't hurting
But tell me..is it too late?
And tell me it wasn't that great?
I don't have an ego I just care what you think
If you owe any favors I'd like to cash in
Time is running out so tell me what you think
Lately its been my vices taking over the righteousness
Pain filling these nights I'm reliving all my fights i guess
Been to hell and back for the one that sent me there
Did it on my free will so blaming her isn't fair
For the world I pretend that truly I didn't care
I'm choking on false pretense coolly gasping for air
Guess I had my downfalls, must've done somethin' wrong
Seems I'm only good enough when the time is long gone
Tired of chasing stupid dreams consider this a swan song
I'm done with this habit of musi...