Jacob John - Long Vacation Lyrics

I am a whirlwind of complication
Sweating it out on a long vacation
Riding the waves of the conversation
Taking it hard but at least I'm taking it

I haven't wanted to stay in a long time
She makes me feel like I'm losing the daylight
Smothers my face with the pillow I pretend to die
Never so good at leaving the past all behind
Alright

I'm taking notes from the looking glass
I see myself in myself in a stupid mask
I watch my face move a split second after I do
I've lost my appetite, but I'll take one more bite

I'm short stacked, but I wanna play
To run amok, not give a f*ck what other people say
I can't believe all the shit that I put into myself
To only feel alright but I never get it right

One time a guy pointed a gun at me
Give me your wallet and your phone, give me everything
I looked him straight in the face and I told him to kill me
He walked away

I'm the most self hating person you know
But I'll fight anybody here, how's that for ego
Yea I'm the worst but I'm the best it just depends on the day
Today I'm ok
I'm ok
It's just me
I'm ok