Jaded Thoughts - Lonely Trip (feat. Yung Metrooo) Lyrics

I've been on a lonely trip, it seems like that these days
Since all my friends or what I thought they were
All just ran away
I got some faces I can't see through the haze
I don't get close to people, oh that's sad
Because I can't tell real from fake
I've been on my own now
I've been trippin'
One bedroom apartment
That's how I'm livin'
And you know I love it though
But I swear I'm missin'
Advice that my mama gave, I would always listen
On the road to happiness
I got it, I ain't missin'
Sometimes all these issues overwhelming, I can't fix them
Can't talk to these people
When they talkin', I dismiss them
They gon' know my name one day
I'll have them reminiscin'
They don't even know where I come from
But they still tryna judge me
I heard the hate and they tell me they love me
Now they all f*ckin' up me
One sip and you're tripping
Pouring codeine straight out the prescription
They tryna get me to help em'
But I'm a money machine, she not a vending, yeah
I've been lost for so damn long, I'ma give up
But I ain't make it this damn far, just to give up
Spinnin' in circles, running into the wall
Why I ain't think it would be this hard
By my lonely, ain't nobody by my side, you're what I'm missing
I've been on a lonely trip, since I woke up that day
Since all my friends had left and news had broke
That caused my whole damn life to change
I had some people who were close, but ran away
Oh, I don't get close to people and that's sad
Maybe I pushed them all away
I just want these moments back. I swear I can't believe it
I never heard the real ones tell me they were leaving
And I've been round cause I don't know what I'm believing
All the time that's passin' now just seems deceiving