Jagtooth - Paradigm Lyrics

Sitting here, chilling in my underwear
Not a care, feeling my surrender to a spirit near
Still you feel for the end of the book
Another child left dead is a life that you took
And when I looked into the light I was shook
'Cause all I saw inside the mirror was a liar and crook
It took a little bit of time to give up
It took a little bit of losing everything that I love
It took a flatline singing it's because of the drugs
It took a hard right beating on my chest to wake up
And, honestly, I wasn't giving a f*ck
Could hardly see myself surrounded by the damage I'd done
Cold winters, no visits
Don't miss ya; you could kick rocks and die
I'm so hungry with no money
It ain't funny how I f*cked up my life
I had a chance to take a chance, and I did it
I lost a lot of friends in calling them victims
Somewhere along the line I started to listen
To every word that anybody had to offer my sickness
Man, it's kinda off how I'm living
In the constant back and forth between conflict and conviction
I'd slit my f*cking wrists if you'd listen
But when the blood dripped dry I would make my decision
Passion is product of watching faces smile
I've been laughing and also losing my patience now
Run me ragged until I got this shit figured out
I am just a bit of an attention-seeking lonely child
Passion is product of watching faces smile
I've been laughing and also losing my patience now
Run me ragged until I got this shit figured out
I am just a bit of an attention-seeking lonely child
I'm just a lonely child
I'm just a lonely child
I'm just a lonely child
I'm just a lonely child