Jairin S - Saltwater Lyrics

Losing interest in sleep or energy drinks any more
You can find me awake at 4 am
In the back of my old car
I don't care about the weather at all
Whether it's sunny skies or storms
Tears on my face I can walk in the rain
& my sadness is left ignored

I've tried counting sheep
But never understood what for
Caffeine always makes me aware
Of all the hurt I store
I can't tell if it gets better at all
If it is cold or if it's warm
But years of the same thing always
Paints a picture I get bored of

I got the names of all my friends
Tattooed in black ink on my heart
I thought it would help them stay but
Now farewells are feeling harder
One door closes more should unlock but
My hands aren't able to open them up
So I remain inside this room
As I'm drowning in salt water
Drowning in salt water

I know how it seems if I bring this up
About fifteen times a month
But it's only you and a handful
I can handle talking to this much
Is it all in my dreams if I believe
That we're running out of love
I put you up on a pedestal
You weren't ready for
& I never measured up

I wish you wouldn't care if I was open
I wish you wouldn't care if I was weak
I wish you wouldn't care if I was curious
I wish you wouldn't care if I was offbeat
I wish you wouldn't care if I was different
I wish you wouldn't care if I felt defeat
I wish you wouldn't care if I was quiet
I wish you wouldn't care if I was me
I wish you wouldn't care when I was crying
I wish you wouldn't care when I would bleed
I wish you wouldn't carry on like you did
I wish you didn't carry my heartbeat
I wish you wouldn't stare across the darkness
I wish you wouldn't laugh at everything
I wish you wouldn't care if I was honest
I wish you wouldn't care when I was me

(I wish you wouldn't care)