Voicemail Video (MV)

I have panic attacks in the shower
Since that December night
Locked myself in my room for hours
Thinking I would never gonna survive
But when you lose someone you love
You start to lose part of your mind
So let's just skip to the part where
One of us dies

Stand atop of your shallow grave or breathe in more of your pesticide
Either way this story's gonna end with a suicide
Should I spray blood on the wall
Or watch as your mind slowly falls
Either way this story's gonna end with a homicide

I have panic attacks in the hallways
Since the day that you left
Watched as you became depressed
Just so she could entertain her guests
And I think I realize why they say love is blind
Two broken people don't equal a whole
It just leaves one in your chest

Stand atop of your shallow grave or breathe in more of your pesticide
Either way this story's gonna end with a suicide
Should I spray blood on the wall
Or watch as your mind slowly falls
Either way this story's gonna end with a homicide

And can we go back to when we were young
When our main concern was about getting tagged
Not getting hung
Oh how can I continue on without you by my side
Do I wanna live do I wanna die
I can't decide

Stand atop of your shallow grave or breathe in more of your pesticide
Either way this story's gonna end with a suicide
Did we lose all the good times
That we made back when we were 7, 8, and 9
Do I wanna live do I wanna die I can't decide
Stand atop of your shallow grave or breathe in more of your pesticide
Either way this story's gonna end with a suicide
And now I'm scared of myself
Because you decided to forget everyone else
I did everything to make you fine
But now I feel like I am not alive