Jamal Ehab - Home Lyrics

I've been running for days
Looking for somewhere to hide and
I've been trying many different ways
But none of the seem to work, oh lord

And I don't seem to figure out my mistakes
I've been wasted down the old road
Looking for something that would raise my hopes

But I'm willing to do all it takes
And I wish I could stay in this place

But Dad you must know

That I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go
Back home

I've been humming in a maze
Trynna figure out my way
And I've been trying to pray
But my day doesn't seem to get better in any way

Scars showed, oh lord, I can't carry this load
And I completely feel I am on my own
Trapped in this home

But I'm willing to do all it takes
And I wish I could stay in this place

But Dad you must know

That I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go
Back home

I've been running all my life
Looking for reasons to cover my lies
Moving on with my filthy actions and
Leaving any goodness behind, yet I
Continue tramping trying to find
It's like I'm looking for something that's missing
Inside

Doing what I have to do instead of wishing I could
Rewind so I
Will continue to walk down this road
Even though its cold, even though I wish I don't
Get effed over by all of my fears

Watching all of my friends and family disappear
Cause it feels like this whole weight is on my
Shoulder
I told her that I won't stop till I feel older
Till I realize that I can't grow any stronger
And I won't stop speeding

With my right-hand word tweaking
And left-hand fingering chords
Better be leaving you all feeling this bliss
I don't need a band for you to start believing
My words and beats bombard their hearts so hard
That their left lung will get torn apart and
I will carry on

'Till my very last heart beat
Till there is no art left in my veins to bleed
Will go further till I can't feel my feet
But I can't do this when you're around

Naturally things won't work
If you frown at me every time I made a sound
And scream in my face saying that
I'm not allowed sing out loud

And yeah, I'll reach for the stars
All I need is my vocal chords
My keys and guitars
Yes father, will reach further using these bars
The same bars you trapped me behind
Will make me a superstar

And I'm exhausted
There have been too many
Words of my own getting wasted
So instead I'll leave my room
My home and my bed

I sincerely apologize Dad
I hope you're not mad
I wish I said it differently
But all I did was rap
And I love you and you must know
That

I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go
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