Janaki - Tunnelin' Lyrics

If I had to choose music or you
I wouldn't know what to do
I think that I would lose
Drinking a delusion when everything is broken
I can't find the peace
Melody is my release
Cause I'm lost and I'm tired too and
To tell you the truth, I can't see where the view is
Something changed when you messed with the frame
Tryna fix, rearrange it
But it all seems to stay the same
Cause I'm lost, I'm lost and I'm running
Lost, I'm lost and I'm running
Lost, I'm lost and I'm running
I'm, I'm, I'm lost and I'm running
I'm lost, I'm lost and I'm running
I'm lost, I'm lost and I'm running
I'm lost, I'm lost and I'm running
Most people smoke to feel something
I smoke to feel nothing
Lost in a paradigm of temptation like David Ruffin
My minds suffering
I'm lost and mad as f*ck I ain't found nothing
Also mad as f*ck at this lame government
Sick of sitting round watching family suffering
Sick of all this shit but I'm not recovering
Underground like Harriet Tubman
I'm still tunneling
They been tryna box me out but I keep running in
Cuz how I'm supposed to eat, I pay my bills and all my money spent and
How I'm supposed to feel when all I feel is all this pain I'm in
Why I'm supposed to lose so many times before I finally win
I know God but I don't know his kin
Brodie said you bound to find a way out just keep going in
I'm just tryna transcend the hype and temporary trends
If shawty tryna wanna f*ck with me tonight I tell her bring a friend
My momma like bae you gone be aight? Shit it all depends
Bottles for my pain, I popped the cork but it's still bottled in
I'm lost, and I'm running
I'm lost, and I'm running
Lost, I'm lost and I'm running
I'm, I'm, I'm lost and I'm running
I'm lost, I'm lost and I'm running
I'm lost, I'm lost and I'm running
I'm lost, I'm lost and I'm running
A masterpiece still tryna master peace
Went from marching in the band to making plays like athletes
Demons running after me, I'm broke and people tryna leech
I'm broken
Over it
Full of potent shit
Dope I'm smoking it
In a coupe tryna cope with it
Money where my focus went
But I ain't close to it
And I Can't post a pic
I'm Tryna make a million from talking but hate that social shit
Even New York winter can't touch me I'm on colder shit
Tell ma I miss her and my daddy that I'm sorry
Still the type to get invited but never go to the party
I got hella plans I'm manifesting future greatness
Said f*ck a waitlist f*ck vacation when your pockets vacant
And f*ck evaluations if they bout the compensation
Cuz I'm rich in soul but life been throwing me some complications
F*ck evaluations if they bout the compensation
Cuz I'm rich in soul but life been throwing me some complications
No one has the answers
No one has the truth
No one has the answers
No one has the truth
So tell me
What can I do?
What can I do?
What can I, what can I do
What can I do?
What can I do?
My brother told me take the chains off
But I'm scared
Cuz I don't know the beast that'll come out
Like if I spend too much time looking inside myself I'm scared I won't ever find my way out
And right now I'm on a safe route to a safe house
But I admit that 9-5 ain't making me happy
I'm supposed to be breaking generational curses but I'm smoking and drinking more often than my daddy
Still struggling with religion to not disrespect the memory of my granny
Cuz if I don't believe in heaven how we ever gone speak again?
If I'm not the one serving the plates how the family gone eat again?
Still smoking strong to compensate for how I'm feeling weak again
But ask my closest friend and they'd say I'm doing fine
Does no one really know me or am I just that good at lying?
Is life really hard or am I hardly trying?
Lord tell me should I give it up or give it time?