God's Perfect Victims Video (MV)

Christina cameron killed herself in 1993
Christina cameron killed herself in 2013
Christina cameron killed herself to get away from me
Christina cameron killed herself in 2023
Two Thousand Twenty Three

Made roses out of shopping bags
She lived off eating rotten meat
Made quilts with heroin cotton balls
And sold them at swap meets
She was sick every morning as part of her routine
Christina cameron killed herself on accident in 1993
Nineteen Ninety Three

Christina called but I didn't answer
None of us did, no one answered
She left me a message just the other day
She left me a message and I still have it saved
She left her message long and rambling
Failing downward, desperate and scrambling
An industry lifer and it's not hard to decipher
When you're always too hyper, and always needed a lighter
Full of ambitions but not any commitments
Those elaborate plans you'd never see through fruition
When she could rock a show and she would hit a home run
Any excuse from every living under the gun
But when she called, I just didn't answer
Like, I got a mortgage now, why would I answer
I unfollowed her socials cuz she was always too vocal
When she left the suburbs and forgot us locals

But she said something that really stood out to me
And now let me tell you what she
Said

Now I, have been resigned
To saying words and they don't always work
Because I love you, but I love you is not enough.
Now I, have been resigned
To saying words and they don't always work
Because I love you, but I love you is not enough.

She wasn't successful but it was never her fault
I mean, all her dreams they just dissolved like salt
Into the ocean she was always making some commotion
But when she called I just didn't answer
Like, what if it said "scam likely"
Like, why would I answer that
This has gotta be a trick
This has gotta be a joke
That princess little miss thing is calling me at this hour
With this news that I
(I still just don't know how to process it)
Because she never said she loved us?
That she she loved us?

She said "Now I, have been resigned
To saying words and they don't always work
Because I love you, but I love you is not enough."
And how I, have been resigned
To saying words and they don't always work
Because I love you, but I love you is not enough.
There's something deep beneath these wounds
The track marks that cross from me to you
I'm writing this in my own blood
I try to speak and I start choking
I wanna I use words that have never been spoken
But I feel like I'm just saying too much
But if tears could talk maybe the drugs could translate
And if wish being born wasn't always a mandate
I'm sorry that we couldn't keep in touch

With the passion,
And the light,
And all that flows deep inside
While the storm is still
I'll be the whistle through you windowsill
And if you choose to hang up
Cuz you don't wanna listen
I respect your decision

I could say a couple Hail Mary's
Consult my rhyming dictionary
Use thyme, sage, and rosemary
Live inside an aviary
If I could make the world breakfast
Perhaps I'd live less reckless
But I'm glad I could still share my love with you
I wish that every boss could see it too
And that sound guy who was really rude
The internet people with their attitudes

I let these word dissolve like salt
Write my final will in chalk
Leave this life of industry
Proteins, fat, acids and sweets
All the killers on active sprees
Proved to be too much for me
The conversations with mental patients
And disappointed girls I've dated
I never wanted to be this bitter
Never wanted to be this jaded
Not a star, but always faded
Never wanted to be medicated
Always taking medication
So I appreciate all your patience
Please remember to tip your waitress
I'll see you in hell, or on vacation

I have been resigned
To saying words
When they don't always work
Love is not enough
When saying words is not enough
Why was I designed
To live to work
To suffer in your in your service
Why was I designed
To live to work
To only suffer and serve
Why was I designed
When all your worth
Is hours you work Clock in clock out
It doesn't work
It doesn't work

"What do you fear most in this world?"
"The possibility that love is not enough."