January Bloom - The Realist Lyrics

I'm a realist
With an unreal expectation
That I know where this is going
And I'm fine with how it ends

Every fall I smell the memories
The freshly dead things always trigger these

I don't go many days
Reminiscing last September
I hurt myself in other ways

I probably buy myself some Pumpkins
But I know I'll never carve them
It's really not
Much fun to carve alone

I'm a realist
With an unreal expectation
That I won't feel so damn lonely
If I took some medication

I'm a realist
With a youtube education
I got too much information
But I'll forget it pretty soon
That's just the truth

On Halloween I hide under my bed
Cuz I'm scared of what you'll do
To my head

I don't eat, many treats
But I getting pretty sick
Of all these shitty tricks

If I ever fall in love with you
You likely end up finding
Someone new
Pretty soon
That's just the truth

I'm a realist
With an unreal expectation
That I won't be so damn lonely
When she finally has my music

On her playlist
Got that YouTube education
I planted seeds in early june
I'll be picking
The january blooms