Javion Bishop - ABANDONED Lyrics

I called to say I'm sorry, you ain't answer it
No texting so figured that you mad again
What we had is special don't abandon it
You ain't check to see how I was managing

But I ain't mad at you that's how you handle shit
When things don't go your way you get to panicking
Never call cause when I do you never pay attention
Now we screaming at our phones & ain't nobody listens

How we gone fix it if you walk away
I tried to do you like Demi & give your heart a break
I tried to call you to tell you that I was sorry babe
Need you to know that you brought light into my darkest days

But I guess my depression had took our spark away
Which led you to question whether your heart was safe
I hit your insecurities in all the hardest ways
I know I'm insensitive to fact

That you take certain shit personal
Like how I never ask about your day that shit be irking you
Then you mention all the other n****s you been curving
And how they treat you better than me
And I get mad enough to rip the f*cking Earth in two

It sound like you been weighing ya options
I pray to God for your protection when the time hits
It's like you wanna be true to me but your mind slips
Your tongue follows and I swallow my pride when

You talk about how they all wanna f*ck you and I be like damn
He tryna f*ck you and y'all still friends?
I wanna trust you but that shit be eating at my insecurities
& I don't wanna lose my woman to another guy again

I run away from my problems I'm like the tightest end
I know your love burns bright but the fire singe
I disconnected with the apple of my eye
This that shit that make Cupid rip off his wings and never fly again

It was myself that I lost
The right intentions with my message, was I saying it wrong
Or were you taking it wrong, like we debating who wrong
When I was simply saying baby this is taking too long

I wasn't saying be gone, I was just telling you the time was wrong
Cause see your needs didn't align with my wants
And vice versa in every way, I spoke to you every day
For three years straight, now I ain't heard from you in 7 days

I'm falling apart baby my head ablaze,
Plotting how to end my life 11 different ways
Maybe I need to move on into a different phase
And let you go and just pray you come back some other day

And pray to God you don't abandon me

I f*ck up again
I get stuck again
I can't love you when
Ain't no loving in
Side that skull of his
He feel numb again
He might cut again
No one loving him

No one kissing him
No one touching him
No one missing him
No one comfort him
No one care for him
No one here for him
He can't run to you
He can't run to them

I SEE BLOOD AGAIN
I FEEL DONE AGAIN
I CAN'T HIDE FROM THIS
I CAN'T RUN FROM THEM
I CAN'T FEEL NOTHING
I CAN'T FEEL NO LOVE
I GIVE UP AGAIN
I GIVE UP