It made me question
What is my need for a relationship
For intimacy
And I realized it's because I felt so disconnected
And so removed from everyone for most of my life
It's like, you know, why do I have such a hard time letting go
I'd rather settle for being unhappy
If it means I get to be unhappy with somebody
So the moment you get somebody to agree to love you
It's like, I will never take my hands from around this
But I'm learning to release and hold on to myself
Or, release and allow something greater to come to myself
You become aware of your part
And realize that before we, there's gotta be me