Jaydus - 6 AM REFLECTIONS Lyrics

And it's just months and months of waiting
Overthinkin' every action, every word
And f*ck, I really f*ckin' hate it
Now I'm drinkin' way more than I should
And now I'm wasted, Everything I did was thankless
You said you loved me, but you couldn't ever say it
And honestly, I'm way past the point of breakin'
I almost do this to myself because I hate me

It's always just a little more time, and a little less love
Just a little less mine, and a little more you
And now I feel used, broken, hopeless, baby would you choose
Said that I was perfect, what the f*ck I do to you, and
I'm so confused, lyin' down in your bathroom
Crying and I'm tryin' to figure out what I should do, man

Go ahead and take a sip, text me when you're drunk
Don't be surprised when I ain't answer bitch, I'm feelin' done
Now everybody tell me that maybe I shouldn't trust
But I still defend you when you've probably just been playing dumb

Watchin' shows, attention broke, can't f*ckin' bare it
Cause I'm too busy thinking bout if you really f*ckin' cared if
I ever took a trip, maybe I'm tripping, shit it's scary
I'll be up for months just thinkin' bout this f*ckin' January
And I know it sounds dumb, but dammit, baby, I'm not crazy
Had me under your thumb
You had me chasing, rearranging all the plans that I'd done
Yeah, it ain't phased me, you need changing, I've done that shit enough
Can't even look you in the eyes, yeah, I despise all the tears
Just two days before I cried cause I was smilin' dear
It's not what I hypothesized, instead the shit that I feared
How the f*ck I ain't realize that this whole time I was here
Said I was perfect, I'm still hurtin', ain't that f*ckin' ironic
Yeah, it's absurd, put all the work in, now it's shifting like 'tonics
I swear it's cursed, I'm f*ckin' certain yeah, these walls f*ckin' haunted
Spit one more verse and it's curtains on everything that I wanted

Go ahead and take a sip, text me when you're drunk
Don't be surprised when I ain't answer bitch, I'm feelin' done
Now everybody tell me that maybe I shouldn't trust
But I still defend you when you've probably just been playing dumb
Go ahead and take a sip, text me when you're drunk
Don't be surprised when I ain't answer bitch, I'm feelin' done
Now everybody tell me that maybe I shouldn't trust
But I still defend you when you've probably just been playing dumb