Jb - Hurdles (feat. TwentySevenGhost) Lyrics

Sometimes it get hard, dealing with all this loss
I try to keep going but honestly I am slowing
It's hard to keep going 'cause no one really be knowing
I'm trying to keep growing but part of me wanna die
Sometimes it get hard, dealing with all this loss
I try to keep going but honestly I am slowing
It's hard to keep going 'cause no one really be knowing
I'm trying to keep growing but part of me wanna die
Nothing really special 'bout me, see that's the truth
I lost my best friend to prison, they sentenced him
You know they gave him 18, two-thirds a sentence, you get parole
Since he been gone, see it's been hard to roll
Off of my chest, I can't go cleaning out my closet
Trapped in my room, I don't go out, no I've lost it
Even though my son is alive, I feel I lost him
Motherf*ckers ratting on me, I never crossed 'em
What the f*ck did I do to you, to take my loyalty and cross it
Like ah shit, I'm back on my boss shit
My loss made me nauseous, my loss made me cautious
I got this, I'm free and I'm conscious
You got this, you got this
Sometimes it get hard, dealing with all this loss
I try to keep going but honestly I am slowing
It's hard to keep going 'cause no one really be knowing
I'm trying to keep growing but part of me wanna die
Sometimes it get hard, dealing with all this loss
I try to keep going but honestly I am slowing
It's hard to keep going 'cause no one really be knowing
I'm trying to keep growing but part of me wanna die
It's time to admit it, was it worth the shit?
Every time I sacrificed but you couldn't
You just freeze, choke up, any adversity you face?
Yeah you get it stuck, still tryna sound tough
A bonafide putz, lots of space to cut
Grab the blades and make a rut
Still covering scars with a superstar strut
But in reality, ain't bad as it seems
I worked my way up since 2019
And it's gotten worse, so for every verse
I write like my life is in a hearse
It's all on the line and I went to work
And this brings me to my grandma's cancer
My grandpa died not long after
I'm brought here now, still need an answer
I'll question God till I'm at my end, I'm reminiscing for every weekend
Used to dread I cannot pretend, I miss those days I'll never get again
So rest in peace to them, but not to the memories
But they're looking down on me, still just doesn't make this shit easy