JB SamSon - WAKE! Lyrics

Barely sleep at night,
Trying hard to reconcile the left
Right and up and down
With the hell that's all around my head
It's been getting loud
All these thoughts been creepin out the bed
Now i lay me down
Just to blink and get back up again
I know you
Just want to
Catch a glimpse of paradise each day you open your eyes
But the truth
Which you know too well
Is just how hard it is to see that place when you're still alive.
But do i wanna die?

I try so hard to keep my mind
At bay, but i won't lie, sometimes
It's hard for me to even see the light
The light
Truth is i lie awake some nights
While my fears creep into my psyche
Praying that I'll see the other side

But man, what can i do?
Have i done enough?
Am i really a man? Or is He callin my bluff?
Does the life that I've given my wife equate to true love?
Is it my fault that things between me and my momma still rough?
Is my living in vain? Or am i living my purpose?
Investments were made
Tell me, was i worth the purchase?
I got so many questions that need answering dawg
But I'm feeling like Kanye
Y'all ain't swaying me with your answers at all
Trying hard not to fall too deep down this rabbit hole
Of what has the potential to enhance or taint my soul
Whether staying on this earth and calling this planet my home
Is worth the pain and anguish that I'll see all my days long
I know things will be better in that paradise
But how long will it be till i see it with my eyes?
But the other question is am i ready to sleep on this life?
When I've got so much to stay awake for on this side