J-Doc - Reflection Lyrics

Slither inside my brain just for a moment
And witness the pain I feel, but try to own it
All my thoughts race and repeating as if they're cloning
I've lost my own mind and nobody even knows it
I wipe the tears off my baggy eyelids as I'm walking
In a dim bedroom shut my mouth and hear the talking
Its the voices again, I tried to run, but they always stalking
I tried to open my heart but metal scrapes as the key is locking
I spin a hard beat cuz I'm a goddamn fool
Like rapping 'bout girls and money make you think I'm cool
But I don't have the shit, makes me feel just like a tool
Man these voices in my head are so goddamn cruel
I let loose and cry tomorrow will be different
I won't be a self-hating fat f*cking misfit
This steady hardship wheres the sail I've been missing
Sometimes I wanna die because I'm barely f*cking living

I believe that tomorrow will be different
I believe, I believe I can see the future within
I believe, I believe i deserve the things I'm wishing
I believe, I believe i will manifest my vision
I believe that tomorrow will be different
I believe, I believe I can see the future within
I believe, I believe i deserve the things I'm wishing
I believe, I believe i will manifest my vision

Yo, I hope you don't think I'm not trying
Cuz When my brain offers progress you bet I'm buying
But when I'm short on change, and my happiness is dying
I gotta wait it out till the tears start drying
Let me talk to you, all about this pain and my scars
Before you back away without feeling my regards
Why they always back away before they hear the first part
You say you're there for me, but left before I even start
I try to block it out but the world stays testing me
It won't let me see the people reaching out and blessing me
Like my brain and soul are disconnecting, steady severing
I hope a record label finds a reason to invest in me
A song should be concise and pinpointed in its meaning
But my thoughts are bouncing back and forth like pong balls pinging
And I'm deaf to this beat, I can only hear the ringing
Because my soul has shattered, I just hope tomorrow brings believing

I believe that tomorrow will be different
I believe, I believe I can see the future within
I believe, I believe i deserve the things I'm wishing
I believe, I believe i will manifest my vision
I believe that tomorrow will be different
I believe, I believe I can see the future within
I believe, I believe i deserve the things I'm wishing
I believe, I believe i will manifest my vision
I believe