J-Doc - Used To Lyrics

If I could reach it
I'd prolly grab it
But its been
So long since I've had it
I see my demons
They're living lavish
Pain is growing so strong
I need it back kid

I use to
Find the vine, divine, or swine, I'm
Always Gonna see the trends as straight lines
But now I
Cease to see the blind eye
Got my friends doing their thing leaving me thinking who am i
I use to
Do it, screw it, caboose, and boo it
Like I'm behind the train while y'all are running through it
I'm through with it, i now present my case, like i am sueing it
I would now like to diss you in the third grade your music is
Almost bad as rejection when Alli Pruitt did
8 year old Jack doing his best at losing it
So f*ck Phoenix the rotten I'm done pursuing it
At least my songs don't sound the same you can stew with it
Morbid curiosity a child's instinct
Getting bullied every day asking
How could they think
Im sad all the time I'm scared late at night
I can hear them all saying take off the disguise

If I could reach it
I'd prolly grab it
But its been
So long since I've had it
I see my demons
They're living lavish
Pain is growing so strong
I need it back kid
If I could reach it
I'd prolly grab it
But its been
So long since I've had it
I see my demons
They're living lavish
Pain is growing so strong
I need it back kid
If I could reach it
I'd prolly grab it
But its been
So long since I've had it
I see my demons
They're living lavish
Pain is growing so strong
I need it back kid
If I could reach it
I'd prolly grab it
But its been
So long since I've had it
I see my demons
They're living lavish
Pain is growing so strong
I need it back kid

I Use to
Love myself for everything I am
But now I
Second guess, hate, and try to pretend
To be the
One i see in dreams with cash and a friend
Without the
Care for thinking if you don't give a damn
I use to
Clown in town with tank tops feeling wild
But now I
Keep the hoodie and the sweats dressing mild
Because I
Was told a youngin I'm too fat for a smile
And that if
I wanna feel love i must go 'way for a while
I use to
Feel as if I'm gonna make it to summit
But now I
Fear the day that this journey just meant nothing
And I
Think that all i want now is to make something
But I
Worry that my convictions were me bluffing
Use to
Have a concept of where I stand
I used to
Feel the music i wrote through my hand
But i
Think what I'm creating now is super bland
Hopin
That one day ill find that spark-fire again
It seems like every single night i wanna die
Then wake up to see the LIGHT, this isn't right I'm asking WHY
Fight or flight when i close my EYES, mouse or might when i wanna CRY
I need a night light cuz i might fright, cuz i miss the days when i was five
Purple pegasus perplexes me so pendently
The perfect piece precedes who plays it per diem pretentiously.
They think its early to mention me
But I'll show em that my lyrics surely get the best of thee
I bet the rest of me, the power that is vest in me
You don't wanna mistake the moves i make like I'm some vestige
He has selected me, he's always standing next to me
I wont betray the snake but he stays hissing through the messagery
He's not my buddy, but he teaches me a lesson
Anxiety has taught me how to dig through all the wreckage
I trust his feeling cuz he knows what for I'm destined
Im just praying for return on the investment

If I could reach it
I'd prolly grab it
But its been
So long since I've had it
I see my demons
They're living lavish
Pain is growing so strong
I need it back kid
If I could reach it
I'd prolly grab it
But its been
So long since I've had it
I see my demons
They're living lavish
Pain is growing so strong
I need it back kid
If I could reach it
I'd prolly grab it
But its been
So long since I've had it
I see my demons
They're living lavish
Pain is growing so strong
I need it back kid
If I could reach it
I'd prolly grab it
But its been
So long since I've had it
I see my demons
They're living lavish
Pain is growing so strong
I need it back kid