JDyzzy - Broken Home Lyrics

Slumping back from that dope
Mama knows that I smoke
But she don't know none the places I go
I've been thinking can't sleep
Been smoking all of this tree
Calming down my mind, do a couple lines
Feel the buzz in my teeth
Ah man, I swear to God, never meant to hurt you
But I was living life on the back burner
And I found myself when I left
You lost the baby you kept
I'll always love you and I'll be here for you
But I'd waste my breath and our time
Tryna tell you my side
Found a home in my rhymes

All I know is I would do it different
I got stories to make you cry
If I'm specific, but I'm keeping it inside
It's f*cking up my mind
The drugs that I've been taking wanna eat me alive

Feeling good when I'm stoned
Was missing home, I had a family though
So when I landed you'd think I'd find my family, no?
Man I've come a long way
I'm putting money in my bank
Thank you, Dad, but it's like I never had you
I never knew the words to say
Man, you're in control
F*ck it's getting old
Got a lot of demons rising and they tryna find me
But I've found a way to cope
I know you make mistakes
And hell, I made some of the same
But the boy you knew is the man you don't
And I've learned to pave a way

All I know is I would do it different
I got stories to make you cry
If I'm specific, but I'm keeping it inside
It's f*cking up my mind
The drugs that I've been taking wanna eat me alive

Yeah, I broke her back then went home
I got places to go, I got a bad bitch calling
But I hung up the phone
Man, I only got time for the smoke in my lungs
They say they hate hypocrisy
They say you bad, but did the same
Guess I had to learn to live not to give a shit
And now I hardly feel the shame
I got a lot of heart, but lost my soul
I'm finding how to wear my crown of thorns
You got a lot of demons, right?
Man, if you feed them right
They're gonna start to make you sore
Yeah there's been a lot of figures that I've known
I guess I should've figured that they'd go
Shit I know I'd do it different
Light another cigarette
Got a million ways that I can grow

All I know is I would do it different
I got stories to make you cry
If I'm specific, but I'm keeping it inside
It's f*cking up my mind
The drugs that I've been taking wanna eat me alive