Jens Haarnagel - Suffer Lyrics

Sleepless nights, cold sweat
I regret that I can say I remember all of it
I still cry at night I still got those thoughts
They haunt me, just let me go
I can't forgive, can't forget
For so long I wished I could turn time back
I wish you could see, you could feel
All this pain inside of me
Even if I still suffer
I will not give up
I stand against it as long as I live
To prove you're wrong with all of that
Hate me, beat me
You won't defeat me
You called it a good treatment
I was bleeding
I've begged and pleaded
My only friend was sadness
You've killed a part of me
I can't forget it
And I know I was not like the others
Not dressed like the others
Didn't talked like the others
Who gave you the right to treat me like this
Felt like a piece of shit drowned in anxiety and panic
But I have to thank you now I'm stronger than this
It was a long way and it still is
I'm so thankful for the ones who still love me
I still know who my friends are and I know you've got none
Even if I still suffer
I will not give up
I stand against it as long as I live
To prove you're wrong with all of that
Hate me, beat me
You won't defeat me
You called it a good treatment
I was bleeding
I've begged and pleaded
My only friend was sadness
You've killed a part of me
I can't forget it
Somehow you've made me
The person that I am today
Somehow but slowly I accept
My past won't define me
So long ago that I thought
To leave this world would be my only escape
It's so long ago that I won't carry
The weight of your mistakes
Hate me, beat me
You won't defeat me
You called it a good treatment
I was bleeding
I've begged and pleaded
My only friend was sadness
You've killed a part of me
I can't forget it