It seemed so innocent at the time, started with your hand in mine
I just wanted to be held, back in 2012
But three years later I was still scared to leave my house
Even though you had moved away I was certain I'd see you out
And still when you come home for New Years
My stomach turns when I know you're near
I was chained up, I was locked up
I was full of fear, whenever you were near
Whenever you were near
And when the first snow came down
I just felt so overwhelmed
Memories came flooding back
To just how you would act
But all I know is I am faded on the couch
And all I need is just to feel your lips on my mouth
Disaster creeps in just to fill the void
You'll never live a life just to enjoy
So depleted, I feel cheated
How did I get here? A life that's full of fear
Tell me how did I get here
Maybe it's cause I'm a bit upset, or I'm too uptight
But I can't get out those words in my head that you said that night
When you stopped being nice and started slamming doors
I didn't think that your jokes were funny anymore
So I left, I parted ways, full of hopes and dreams
Cause someone had to leave
And for the first time it was me