Jesse Wildman - I'm Not Happy Lyrics

This one was tough to write

I should be happy but I'm not, I'm not
All the negativity is entering my thoughts
Yeah, I should be happy but I'm not, I'm not
I should thank God for the things that I've got

I should be happy but I'm not, I'm not
Thought I'd be your Romeo; but then I missed the shot
It's a twisted plot, reminiscing was a kid that's shy
Every day I'd hit you up with a different pick up line
Hoping one day I could make you mine, maybe change your mind
So I opened up my heart and then I put it on the line, yeah
But I guess it wasn't meant to be, you and me
Romeo and Juliet became a tragedy
It's so sad to see, now I gotta move on
Graduating, relocating to a place maybe Tucson
Got my boots on, journey feeling too long
Putting all our memories into a Nike shoebox
Maybe when I get there I will make another new song
Maybe I'll admit that I was scared your love was too strong
Maybe you were right, and maybe I was wrong
And maybe I still love you and was happy all along cause

I should be happy but I'm not, I'm not
All the negativity is entering my thoughts
Yeah, I should be happy but I'm not, I'm not
I should thank God for the things that I've got
Yeah, I should be happy but I'm not, I'm not
I'm not really feeling good, stomach in a knot
Yeah, I should be happy but I'm not, I'm not
I should thank God for the things that I've got

What's wrong with you Jesse
Why's everything gotta be so hard

I should be happy but I'm not, I'm not
God gave me a lot but a lot I have lost
Guess the Lord giveth, and He taketh away
Well now I'm down on my knees cause He making me pray
And I can't stomach all the pain, instead I'm pushing You away
I tried so hard to run away, but feel like I'm running in place
And I don't deserve Your grace, naw I don't deserve it
You sent me a message, I want You to know I heard it
And even though I'm hurting I'm still giving You my best
That's why I have Your verses on my back and on my chest
I try to open up; but still I struggle to connect
My heart I'm holding up; I just want You to accept
That I don't know how to live, so what should I say now?
Want it black or white, I never wanted it greyed out
Looking up to You, can You show me the way now
Show me the way now, show me the way out cause

I should be happy but I'm not, I'm not
All the negativity is entering my thoughts
Yeah, I should be happy but I'm not, I'm not
I should thank God for the things that I've got
Yeah, I should be happy but I'm not, I'm not
I'm not really feeling good, stomach in a knot
Yeah, I should be happy but I'm not, I'm not
I should thank God for the things that I've got

There's a verse I want you all to hear
It's the one I have on my chest

Revelation 21:4
Said He'll wipe away the tears and that death will be no more
And He'll claim all of our sorrow, and our crying and our pain
For the former things have passed cause He took it all away
And even when I'm struggling to figure out my place
In a world full of serpents who will try to test my faith
I am yearning for discernment when I bow my head to pray
And I'm searching for Your loving even when I lose my way cause

I should be happy but I'm not, I'm not
All the negativity is entering my thoughts
Yeah, I should be happy but I'm not, I'm not
I should thank God for the things that I've got
Yeah, I should be happy but I'm not, I'm not
I'm not really feeling good, stomach in a knot
Yeah, I should be happy but I'm not, I'm not
I should thank God for the things that I've got