jessman - Miles Apart Lyrics

Many years ago from the get-go, I f*cked up I couldn't let go, no
I miss my mom in so many different ways, I hate it, stop playin' these goddamn games
Get me a plane ticket right away, so I can get on this motherf*ckin' airplane
So then I can fly home and pretend nothin' ever happened, you know?
Mom, we're miles apart, but in reality you're closer in my heart
My heart aches and my heart breaks, so much anger, so much hate
I'm filled with rage, I'm like a ticking time bomb that will explode at almost anytime of the day
Sooner rather than later people will say that I'm unsafe
Mom, I'm losin' you, I won't let these bastards take me away from you
If they try to, they'll have to get through me before they get to you
I better suck it up and pull my big boy pants up, 'cause here I come mom, I'm gonna visit you

We're miles apart, but that won't stop me from keeping you in my heart
Mom, I say we're miles apart, but that won't stop me from keeping you in my heart

I can't explain to you all the bullshit I've been through
But the only person responsible is me for not telling truth
I hold in my emotions, I hold in the pain, I can't tell you, it's hard to explain
People tell me to let it all out, but I can't not when I'm in nothin' but doubt
Even in my darkest days I know that I should make up for my mistakes
Even though the past is in the past, I wish that I could take it all back
Even though I'm a let down, I try to keep my emotions hidden underground
But that never works, I try to release the pain, the pain is too powerful to even be taimed
I feel anxious, no matter how much money will be involved, there's nobody in this world that will be able to solve it all Mom, I want to see you again, but that Probably won't happen until 3010
Way after I am dead So, with that being said I probably should go to bed, and once I go to bed I don't
Want to wake up ever again

We're miles apart, but that won't stop me from keeping you in my heart
Mom, I say we're miles apart, but that won't stop me from keeping you in my heart

I'm tryin' to tell you insecurity is killin' me, feels like it's gonna go on for eternity
I'm done feelin' the way I feel, I'm sick and tired of people telling me how to act in the real world
But what really is the real world? That is the million dollar question
All these shrinks and therapists telling me I'm being messed with
Bitch, nobody messes with me 'cause I'm the one who will address it
I don't need nobody elese to help me out, don't you dare even f*cking question it
I'm independent, thank you very much I just need contact with my mother and take her out to lunch
And get her caught up on my life and such, but no Marnie's got her panties in a bunch
Somedays I feel like rolling over and taking the punch to my gut
Other days I just wanna get back up and fight for once
I won't stop fighting for my rights until the day I die, we all knew Marnie lied this whole time

We're miles apart, but that won't stop me from keeping you in my heart
Mom, I say we're miles apart, but that won't stop me from keeping you in my heart

Mom, I don't get why it has to be like this, it's all incredulousness
They don't see eye to eye like we do, to be honest they don't even try to
They say that you're detrimental to me, I beg to differ
I'll make sure them motherf*ckers pay when I whip out my pistol from it's holster
Before they get the chance to fight back their asses will be in the ground twenty seconds flat
They're a bunch of scrum rats livin' in the sewer well
They all deserve to burn and rot in hell
What can I say other than scream and yell
At the end of the day my emotions got the best of me, oh well, I had to let go of it somehow