I've learned to let go
To love in ripples
That boys don't love me back because you didn't love me right
But boys don't love me back because boys don't know love
And you are the first boy to fumble my heart so carelessly
And it's not that I was ever clumsy
But I've mastered the dance of dodging holes you dug in me
And mom always said fill the holes
And a poet taught me fill them with galaxies
And life taught me to fill them with glow worms because fireflies are too delicate
Forgetting to forge fires when they're afraid
But glow worms shine the brightest in the darkest places
And you have made absence of light common
So I pray when I die
I come back as a glow worm
Or a firefly
Or a phoenix
Or maybe God will let me come back as myself
Because I'll have learned there's nothing wrong with me
And what makes me deserving of everything is nothing
That issues are galaxies
That dancing isn't denial
That dying to be me
Is something worth living for