I try, I try, I try
To despise myself too hard
To the point where I'm in pain
And I'm damaging my brain
And I'm overthinking how I'll never change
What if I can't be your man after tomorrow
Will you think of me with sorrow
Or will you think of me with joy
Will you reminisce in grief
Was me leaving a relief
I can't come back to
Does it really even mean a thing
If I could walk away
I don't think we're meant to be
You're toxic and perplexing me
I try, I try, I try
To despise myself too hard
To the point where I'm in pain
And I'm damaging my brain
And I'm overthinking how I'll never change