Going Crazy Video (MV)

But I feel like I've been going crazy
Lately I ain't been that happy
I remember when I was in high school
I used to sneak to sleep up in the locker room
Friday night, so Saturday morning I could make it to the walk through
And ain't no one I could really talk to
But the homie, KeShawn and he ain't even knew
I'd be like, bro you getting breakfast this morning
And if you is well, could you bring two
And he would come through every time
That's why that's the homie for life
And when we'd roll through to my mom crib
He knew something wasn't right
But we would still slide
We would just chill
We would just sit and just vibe
Just talk about life
And he would be like
Just stay on your grind and things will be fine
I've been through the most, you know how it goes
So much you're holding in
Way deep inside, you can't tell a soul
Not even the closest of your friends
You're losing your hope
You're feeling so low
And you're just hoping it all ends
Soon as you feel like you're gaining control
Nope, here we go again
And truthfully, I'm on this earth to
Make sure every dream my family's ever dreamed is pursued
To make sure every vibe of negativity is removed
To accept the things I cannot change
Well at least learn to
And I sure do
Pray and pray
For a better future but I've got to take it day by day
I use all the love I can to push the hate away
I woke up and told myself today
I know I ain't crazy
But I feel like I've been going crazy
Lately I ain't been that happy
Used to ask my mom, Why did you have me
I know I know I ain't
It feels like ima vomit
What time is it
Dang man, it feels like the day just started
Well, ima still give my all regardless
And through all of the negativity ima remain positive
Move forward that direction
I keep track of my progression
I thank God for all my blessings
Go spend more time with my nephews
I wake up every morning
Send my prayers up to the heavens
Cause I tried to kill myself
Thank God I second guessed it
I had that beretta loaded, pointed to my dome
But I could let it blow
I guess my heart isn't that cold
Kept thinking about the look on my moms face and both my brothers sons
When they say your uncles gone
I live like as if nothing's wrong
Knowing damn well something wrong
But everything I undergo in life
Know ima overcome
I just talk to God about it
Say my prayers and open up
He the only one that knows what's up
And knows just where I'm coming from
All I've ever shown is love
Roll my eyes and shoulder shrug
To the lowest of my lows
Like when I ain't have no spot to slump
Summer 16' living in my car man, it was hot as what
Every day I thought about killing myself
I really thought that I was crazy
But I know that I ain't crazy
I used to be unhappy
Used to ask my mom, Why did you have me
I know I know I ain't crazy
But I feel like I've been going crazy
Lately I ain't been that happy
Used to ask my mom, Why did you have me
It's Jilg-Brown
I know I know I ain't