I'm built for something
Bigger than this
Started to think that maybe I just made a mistake
All of this time that I put in the effort for me to be great
Niggas be plottin' they look at the options I got on my plate
Ironic they look at my plate and they seeing their face
This ain't the year for my peers to be playin it safe
I lock myself in the studio then I go catch me a case
I ain't released in a minute they thought I was takin' a break
This is a single but I'm makin' double just look at the tape
I been waitin' like I'm waitin tables
Rappers rappin' raps and they be statin fables
Claim we family dawg I got a way the options
Get the rock and really have the cane and able
Tell the critics they gon' have to bring the labels
You know John be bombin' I go kamikaze
Who the flight attendant said your plane with Stable nigga
Man I feel like this is just a lot
There are those of us who like to venture to the unexplored
To see the beauty in the strange and unknown
Those of us who go out there
With a sense of wonder
Rekindling how I felt in 09
J-Love was so blind
To bills and how it feels to soak and cosign yourself
What's on your mind? well
My grind they kick flip I sit while Nick Brooks and Warner would tighten trucks and grind but
What's on my mind was why my momma was drinkin' so much
And how am I gonna wash my clothes for school time
I said f*ck it
Nick would give me pants and shirts to look fly but I would just buying time
I'd go and eat school at lunch and spill mustard on all of his favorite pants
And Carmen would go wild she
Ain't understand my struggle But I tried
To hide my shame and Nick said dawg man it's fine
He ain't understand how much it meant to me
But that shit carved a history and sleepin on his couch just to hide
From the chaos
Momma goin' through the trials
And tribulations but I hate to thinking that she was way off
It got worse when Jasmine came and she got laid off
And winter came an we was freezing Bernie couldn't Madoff
Man I was stressed
The trailer turned into a trap house
Was the greatest summer ever but I couldn't map out
Where I was goin' in my life so I pulled a strap out
Robbed a nigga trigger happy almost blew his cap out
At that very moment I think I made a decision
Heart racin' and my trailer was thinking division
Yeah I wasn't good at math if I subtract the friends that's bad
Would I still be a gangsta and go into prison
Did I wanna be a gunner with snakes that'll slither
A young thug YSL you stay where you livin
Or white people stereotypin' and say I'm a nigga
Or did I wanna be a star
Man this shit was so bizarre goddamn