JN - Mirror (feat. T.R.U.T.H) Lyrics

Ay yo
Why am I feeling this way
Thought this was a feeling that came
Only at night in a bad dream
Ay yo
Why am I feeling this way
I'm stuck I don't know what to say
I'm tryna find the words to explain myself
Weird to think I used to drink top shelf
Speared the bank, put a hole through my wealth
Carried hate, mental health all distraught
Only cared bout my self n that's what teared me apart uh
Having nothing man there's nothing to it
And I swear I had a plan, yea I knew it but I blew it uh
It was so real, ran my hands through it
Even had an understanding of the blueprints but I screwed it up
Really on a role, messed my life up can't undo it
Darkness Filling up this hole in my soul and I can't just glue it up
Tell me what f*ck caused all this bad luck
I swear I'll sue it
Then at least I'd have some money to my name
And we all know cash is the best remedy for pain
Way before the relapse I was on track, getting paid right
Was way too relaxed, I slacked, now I live a pained life
Started as a sprout but it grew into a vine
Tried to cope by using and abusing all the time
Cuz I hoped I'd then be free to sleep and rest my mind
Cuz my mind's not at ease, popping sleeping pills like Mike n Ikes
You and I are not alike, say you know how I feel then you can take a hike
It's not true you're not real, you're facade I can see through
Had potential but it was clawed from my grasp what can I do
It was fraud, makes me wanna cry and scream like Caillou
Aint odd how I lie down and dream about the life I through
Away
Give me another chance
What can I do to change
Letting out my feelings, put the pen to the pad
Reminiscing bout my pain but it won't make me sad
I'm looking in the mirror and it makes me really glad
Women put my mind at ease, you won't ever catch me mad
Not ordinary I'm one of a kind
Praying to God every day that everything will be fine
Always had a dream and it was to go and rhyme
I'm not joking I been at it since the age of 5
Ay yo
Why am I feeling this way
Got too much to do, get the f*ck out my way
If you don't wanna grow I won't force you to stay
I'll be in the studio all night and all-day
Ay
I ain't here to f*ckin' play
This is my life man this ain't no game
Don't compare me to you cause we not the same
Best put some respect on my m'f*cking name
I'm not stressing cause people come and people go
My bars are loaded in a clip, watch as I let it blow
Lights, camera, action, I'll be putting on a show
While you hate on the journey, I'll continue to grow
In a couple years, you gon' see my name up in lights
Working every day, my profit is reaching greater heights
So my dreams and goals don't seem so out of sight
I've done a lot of bad things but I'll make it right
Love and hate, it's all starting to look the same
It's time for you to back up the words that you claim
If you losing in your life you got yourself to blame
It's time for you to find your worth
And light your inner flame
Ay yo
Why am I feeling this way
Thought this was a feeling that came
Only at night in a bad dream