codependency Video (MV)

Every time that I get low
I used to fix it with a high
I used to meddle with my mind
I used to paint outside the lines
And now I'm sober I don't know
I got no place left to hide
From the toxins left inside
Better off if I just died
My head is spinning like a globe
Eyes are sore from all the crying
Tongue is sore from all the lying
Telling people that I'm fine
I got no place left to go
I been running out of time
I can't find the words to rhyme
Might as well turn out the light
I don't really wanna face the music
I always turn to drugs when I lose it
And I don't like myself when I been using
I feel useless
I don't really wanna face the music
I always turn to drugs when I lose it
And I don't like myself when I been using
Codependency has got me losing
I know that the old me had a purpose
But what's the value if I still feel just as worthless
I got these scars but they're underneath the surface
But if I cannot face them, then I'm doing a disservice
I've lived a lot of life, fought against a lot of strife
Really thought I had a wife, and now I'm back at zero
And maybe I'm too worried bout the zeroes
Let me vent for a minute
Feeling like a loser every second I'm not winning
I wanna be a rapper but my heart just isn't in it
Only really here when life has pushed me to the limit
And got no one else to talk, to
And the silence gets so fraught, oo
Every thing that I've been taught, all times that I've lost
Baby that was just a walkthrough
And that's including when I lost you
And now I sit here feeling lost
Wanna heal the pain without slipping in the sauce
I tried to give my all, without thinking of the cost
Just a few more memories that live here in a box, on my shelf
I don't really wanna face the music
I always turn to drugs when I lose it
And I don't like myself when I been using
I feel useless
I don't really wanna face the music
I always turn to drugs when I lose it
And I don't like myself when I been using
Codependency has got me losing
I don't really wanna face the music
I always turn to drugs when I lose it
And I don't like myself when I been using
I feel useless
I don't really wanna face the music
I always turn to drugs when I lose it
And I don't like myself when I been using
Codependency has got me losing
I don't know
I'm lost