The John Bisagna Disaster - Socialize With Toads Lyrics

The bar is closed but here i sit
No drink, but a cigarette is lit
No matter how hard i try
To move past my past my life keeps slipping by

So i sit here alone
Even in a crowd, i feel alone
The feeling reminds me of home
That's where i go when i want to be alone

I don't do that anymore, still feel like i need to settle the score
Memories keep flooding back, it's ego and self worth and confidence i lack
I guess i'll just socialize with toads
Listen to me but don't try to crack the code
There are people i look up to, but i look in the mirror and all i got was you

I tried to drown in the drink, i tried to ignore every little thought i think
Life is long and hard sometimes help me now, don't read between the lines
I gave up so much for so long, i'm terrified of singing you this song
Things are different so it seems, or am i just lying?